This is a nervous vent.

My first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage. The OB I go to doesn't do your first ultrasound till 10 weeks. We went in and it didn't end well. A week later I had to have some medicine to push along my miscarriage. When I had my daughter they took me in at 5 weeks. Now I'm pregnant for the third time and they won't take me in till almost 11 weeks. I'm super freaked out I will lose this pregnancy. I haven't had a ton of symptoms, but with my daughter I was sick a lot. But I knew if I was throwing up then she was alive. My husband has been gone for three weeks, will be gone for another 2. He can't be here to help with this. So my head is running away at night. I'm trying to understand that I have no control over this. That if we are suppose to have a second baby then it will happen. But I'm scared. I'm going to call the ob today and ask them to push my ultrasound a few weeks early. Miscarriage changes your excitement for everything. Right now I'm just scared I will lose this baby.