I found out on Friday April 19th that our baby had no heartbeat at 11 weeks. I wasn’t bleeding or cramping at all. I opted for a d&c and I had it done this morning. I have been a wreck for the past 5 days. But sitting there waiting and knowing that my baby wasn’t alive absolutely killed me. So surprisingly after the d&c I was slightly relieved. Relieved that the procedure was over but just relieved that I finally feel out of limbo and ready to heal and hopefully try again after I get another period. I know I will have bad days. But today is the first day I’ve felt like I might be okay someday. I am so sorry to anyone else going thru this. It is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through and at first I really didn’t know how people made it through this.

I am bleeding like I just had a baby (I have two daughters already) but I’m not in much pain. I had some cramping right after but the nurse gave me some medicine in my IV to help and it went away. Now I’m alternating Tylenol and ibuprofen and it seems okay. (For anyone that is wondering what to expect)