My husband and I have been TTC for almost 3 years. We thought at this point one of us was infertile and were about to get testing done.

Out of the blue, I had horrendous abdominal pain, vomiting, nausea, and what I thought was the first day of my period.

I was in pain for 2 days, finally after 4 hours of puking my guts out we went to the er.

After 4 hours of crying and not knowing what was going on, the dr comes and in a room full of people says hey by the way you're pregnant. Well do some ultrasounds and figure out what's going on.

At this point I knew that something was wrong and I told myself to not get excited, but I couldn't help it. For the next 4 hours nothing in this world mattered, no amount of pain I was in was important, I was finally going to be a mommy!

The next dr I saw brought all those fantasies crashing down. I had a tubal pregnancy and they were afraid of a rupture so I had emergency surgery.

I lost a baby and a fallopian tube that day.

It's now been about 6 weeks since then. I haven't gone back to work yet. I'm trying to get myself back to normal. But honestly this is the first time I've actually sat and thought about everything. Physically I'm almost back to being me, emotionally, I don't even know where to start repairing myself.