:( feeling down

i see hot guys in other states but where i live it aint none lmao.. i see girls livin the dreams while im stuck with a deadass man that aint got shit for himself all he does is drink and treat me wrong been with him 4 years... i always think why cnt i have sexy man that will love me treat me good... in order find my true love i have to go out state because around here is drug heads and whores... anyways im chubby not preety so i will never get hot guy lmao.... it sucks and the only reason i think im with my bf is because he accepts me for who i am but at same time i dont need get treated like dirt :( or my two kids ... i always tell him i want to be single and just live with my kids but he never goes... he always say he goin chnage but he dont hes an asshole...