I am 1 in 6 women

I wanted to post this but I have no where to post it shout everyone freaking out on me so

He took my innocence at 11 years old I was wearing my night pants and a big T-shirt

He said “shh, no one can know. It’s our secret.”

And that stuck in my head like it was the first song I learned

He took the peace of mind I once had

He is the reason I can’t sleep at night

Everyone said he was fun to be around, but no one noticed what happened that one night he had one to many to drink

No on noticed why my eyes was red and puffy the next day because of me crying to sleep the night before

No one noticed why I didn’t want to go over there and made me go anyways

Now I’m 18 years old and have thoughts of killing myself nearly every other day I have to seek help because of you

Now I can’t trust any man that comes into my life unless they show me more than one reason why I should trust them

Now everyone asks me why I don’t want to go to that one store? The one you took me to earlier that day before you was drunk

Now everyone asks hey I don’t like it there? Because you took me there before we went back to my aunts apartment

I reported you to my physiatrist after 6 years I finally told someone.

The first question they asked me was “WHAT WAS I WEARING?” As if what happened to me was my fault. As if you raping me was all my fault. Once I heard that question I still can’t get it out of my head it plays over and over again like your favorite new song

Everyday I’m stuck in the town you destroyed me

I’m stuck in the place you killed the girl I used to be

The girl I once was so happy and full of life

You’re part of the reason I had to grow up quicker than I needed to

I’m now 18 years old and there’s so many things you have ruined for me

You have made me want to leave this town

Where my family is

My little sisters need me here if I can’t stay because you are the constant reminder that only bad things happen to me here.

What I was wearing shouldn’t even be a question but it’s asked every time a rape or sexual assault is reported. What you are wearing doesn’t matter. No one asks for this to happen to them.