So scared

So March 30th 2019 I had a misscarage my levels went back down to 0 but the last few days I have been feeling the same as I did before the misscarage but i am soooo scared to take a test i feel like if its negative i am gonna be so sad and if its positive I'm gonna be so scared it really sucks feeling like this I have 2 kids from previous before my amazing husband he has no bio kids and it the last 2 years we have had two misscarage we have been to fertility got that all dealt with and got the okay to start trying again then 4 months after I got pregnant I was only like 3-4 weeks so I was still very early when I miscarried just gate this feeling of being so scared :(