Af came yesterday a whole 11 days before is was due I cried the whole day yesterday

Yesterday was so hard I awoke to spotting then turned into a whole period and I just had my period on the 13th of April it lasted four days I started bd on the 16th up until the Sunday I used opks I tempted every morning I took prenatals and used pre seed it all ended in disappointment my boyfriend tried everything he could to cheer me up , a massage , he wanted to get me ice cream nothing cheered me up it’s been 6 months of trying I told him I just give up , then I run into my neighbor she’s 8 mths pregnant and our other neighbor is too she 19 with going on 3 babies and it made me hurt in away I haven’t in a long time I’ve excepted it my boyfriend is like no we’re not given up but my minds made up now it breaks my spirit day by day maybe it’s not meant for me I do have a 15 yr old and a 12 yr old from previous relationships