I can’t help but feel unwanted in a way when it comes to friendships. It’s always a situation where I think they’re my friends but they aren’t actually and talk shit about me behind my back. I don’t understand why I attract people like this or if I turn them into this?? I would describe myself as being a good friend, because why would I want anyone to feel the way I feel. Unwanted. Unlikable. Weird. Sad.

I’m almost 20 and I’ve never had a ‘friend’ who wasn’t like that. I just want someone to appreciate me like I would them. I’m tired of feeling like this.