Help ur gurl out!

Hi ppl so I’m just gonna rant a little bit bout my life rn since I have nothing better to do. I’m kinda gonna treat it like a journal but leave a personal info out. If you have any advice plz speak out lol!

So there’s this guy in my school he’s in gr 11 and I’m in gr 9(i know I’m young but I’ve had some not so great life experiences that made me tough, strong, mature). Ever since I stepped foot in the school for the first time I saw him and immediately wanted to know him, talk to him, get him to notice me back. Ever since then, I’ve added him on insta, found out that his locker is somewhat close to mine, tried to do small subtle things (like making eye contact and not breaking, trying to be in his view) for him to see me in the crowd instead of not knowing I exist. The year is literally gonna be over in 1 month and the only recognition I get for him is when he likes my insta posts. At this point I’m really bummed because I spent the whole year crushing on him and nothing, which is very surprising because I’m usually the type of person who sees a guy and automatically fall in love with them and has multiple crushes. But for almost 9 months he’s the only person on my mind. I’ve seen him from afar on the school council, speaking at assemblies, and even just walking around and every time my heart just beats faster and faster. I don’t like him because of his looks I like him because of his personality and character traits, which is also not in the norm for me! I’ve had multiple dreams of him and get déjà vu from one specific one that I will never forget. Ughhhhh why do I always have to like the ppl who don’t see me as anything :(

Anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk!

Plz make sure to help out ur gurl and give me some support!

Sincerely, dazed and confused

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