Long story short

My bf and I broke up a few weeks ago but we are still friends and I know he’s not looking for another girl but he told me if he found one he’d try and date her.

I originally planned on waiting for him but last night I did oral with one of my guy friends. I feel as if I just cheated on him. I’m still in love with him but I’ve been horny on main for a while and I’d been flirting, mostly as a joke, but last night something changed.

I don’t want a relationship with this new dude but I kinda want to do stuff with him again.

I feel like I’m cheating on my ex and I feel guilty but also this was my original plan for college, just have casual flings with people with no meaning but idk.

I guess I just needed to put this out there but I dunno, if you wanna leave a comment telling me your opinion go ahead I’m down to listen and talk about this.

( also I can’t tell any of my friends bc I don’t want to invade his privacy and kiss and tell so I just don’t have someone to talk to with about this)