Im not ok

I have irregular cycles and I was thinking that I have a 40day cycle this time and i never got two strong lines on my opk.

I have been testing them since cd10 or so.

I had pinkish discharge and cramping on cd26 to cd31 and i thought if I was ovulating or its implanted.

But today on cd32, i see light blood discharge in the morning and my periods started this afternoon.

Who ever said becoming pregnant was easy, its not!

Its a mental pain and body stress and fcked up life on those 28 days!

To top it, i had a miscarriage with my first on week 10 on feb 23. Ttc again but failed miserably twice.