Depressed

Am probably going to sound dumb or idk but i can’t help it, i still feel really sad and lots of emotions i wish i didn’t because i can’t get over the fact that am having a boy and i really wanted a girl 😔 i know am bad. I see everyone posting about their girls. I don’t even like going to baby sections when shopping because all i see is cute girl stuff. Ill be having my third boy in 8 weeks and i just don’t know how to feel 😭