I think the thing I'm struggling with the hardest is my body image. I know I've lost weight. When I went in for time to confirm my pregnancy, I weighed 242. the week after I had my son, I went in for a doctor's appointment, and weighed 196. Which is huge for me, I'm happy, I wanted to lose the weight. But I also know I have a long way to go. I've struggled with body image issues in the past. But this time it's a major problem because it was created by the comments of other people. My husband, my aunt, and my grandma. My aunt said just a week after having my son "you look so great! Your face is thinner! You look so pretty now! Now Morgan, are you going to really work hard to keep that weight off?" It. Crushed. Me. My husband said now that I'm not pregnant anymore he's very much attracted to me again. Which made me feel like he wasn't attracted to me while pregnant, which is why we didn't have sex. And we still haven't. I haven't had sex with my husband in about 8 months now. It hurts me. I needed that physical affection from him when I was pregnant and he wouldn't do it. Now he's all hot to trot and I'm just not interested after that comment. I wasn't good enough all those months and now all the sudden I am and I should just give it up? I don't think so. Yesterday my grandma had her friend over, who I've also known for a very long time. She started talking about her son and his baby momma and how she's gained so much weight since the baby. Before I could say anything my grandma said "Morgan lost a lot of weight while pregnant. But she's gained some of it back now." And I said "that wasn't nice of you to say" right then and there. She said "I'm not saying anything that you haven't said." And I told her how it was uncalled for for her to say that in front of her friend like that. I later told her when her friend left that it genuinely hurt my feelings and I don't understand why she'd say something like that when she knows what I'm struggling with. She said "Well I'm so sorry it hurt your feelings Morgan, I didn't mean for it to." In the worst tone and the worst way possible. She never calls me Morgan, I'm always Mo. Unless she's mad, I'm in trouble, etc. I'm just struggling with it really bad and it's causing me to emotionally eat. I feel like I'm only worth what people see me as. Which right now by everyone's comments, doesn't feel like much. I'm sorry...I just needed someone to talk to. I needed to tell someone. Because I've kept it to myself all this time and I feel like it's contributing to postpartum depression really bad. 😔