Overwhelmed

Most days I feel pretty good but today feels too much my son has lost his clown dr teddy that my late partner gave him ,my fiancé and I cancelled our engagement party because his family members don’t accept me we both agreed we’d rather spend the money on our children and our upcoming elopement/ family holiday we’ve both lost our previous partners to cancer I was looking at pics today I just feel low it’s been so full on I’m tired of trying to fit in when I don’t I’m 14 w 5 days with our little one I just feel crap found out my family allow some of his family to go round and bag me out even though I knew this it just hurts I’m so over it this last year and a half has been so hard just getting through and now I’m settled and happy I just wish others around me could be happy for me I feel lost today 😪.