fam and school

ok so this is mostly just gonna be a rant but I just feel like there's no one for me. not like in a relationship. like just in general with fam and friends. I have only told one person about how I feel so to everyone else I just look like a crazy psychopath who cries all the time when no one knows y. bc they don't know I'm being bullied. they don't know I hate myself. they don't know so they assume. assume it's puberty. assume it's just me being a baby. I'm tired of it. but I can tell anyone. ik they're just gonna say I'm dramatic or they just won't get it. I really don't know what to do and I just think everyone around me just pittys me. I hate it. even my best friends. whenever they invite me over I want to say yes but I just feel like they just feel bad and I'm actually so bad. idk it's just really stressing me out and I don't know what to do anymore. again sorry for the rant I just can't tell anyone else.