Anxiety about having kids all of a sudden

My whole life I have ALWAYS wanted to be a mom. I am married to an amazing guy and we just got married this past October. I went off BC the end of December and the past 4 months I would literally cry in sadness when I got a negative test. Out of no where I got super bad anxiety about having kids, and I have never ever questioned it. Has anyone else gone through this? I have anxiety and I was on medication before but I had to go off of it while ttc. I don’t want my anxiety to always hold me back from the things I truly want.

When I don’t have anxiety I don’t even question this...