So this is my right time actually writing on this site and I’m feeling so many emotions right now so this will probably be me getting my emotions out and might be confusing.

Just some backstory I live with my mom dad and brother and my brother is the favourite child and sometimes I absolutely lose it because of how entitled he is we both play hockey and his is way more expensive than mine and my parents don’t really seem to care about what happens with my team but with my brothers team if something happens it’s their first priority. When my brother and I want something most of the time we get it but if I ask for something and my brother disagrees with me getting that my parents will buy it but when ever I do something that make them made at me my mom will hang it over my head and say that I’ve cost her so much money and get whatever I want and I can’t do one thing right for her, i have a heart condition and to “fix” it it costs a lot of money and I’m scared that if I do get it than my parents will hang my mom will hang it over me and I really don’t want that but with out the operation I can’t continue to play the sports that I love but I don’t want to deal with all the stress that it will cause me. I also have braces and a VERY bulky appliance which causes me to lose sleep that cost tons of money that I a teenager must wear which I don’t because I get made fun of at school and by my brother which really does affect me so I don’t wear it but lately my mother has been threatening me that she will take away everything I own and sell it until it adds up to the money that she spent on this appliance so yeah, to add on top of everything at school I’m made fun of because I don’t wear of have very many expensive things and then I come home and when I see somethings hat looks cool I will show my parents and my mom every time responds were poor and can’t afford that and I’m just there like OKAY I didn’t ask for it I’m just showing you, being poor is the one thing my mother complains about the most and i know that my family is not poor but we’re not rich either but when someone you spend so much time with constantly brings it put it makes an impact. I’m a very insecure person and don’t have anyone to trust with my issues so I’m writing this

I just really want to know if I’m being a shitty person and only thinking about my self and being very selfish or if my mom shouldn’t be saying that to me and is there anything that I can do to make myself feel better.