A New Me: Letter to my ex

I miss you. A little over a month has passed and I still miss you, but people say “you can miss someone and not want them back in your life” and I’m starting to believe that. I feel so numb at times but at the same time I feel so alive. Whenever I think of an amazing memory we had together I smile but that’s all that it is, just a memory and I get to keep those memories forever. I keep praying to God that you are okay, that he gives you strength everyday but most importantly that you’re at peace with yourself. I really do hope you’re doing okay. I think about you but I’m noticing I think about you a little less everyday. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not thinking of anyone else, well maybe one person but you know her. I’m thinking more about..me. I laugh, and I really laugh not that fake laugh I used to do but I laugh..loud. I take more pictures now, and I smile in those pictures, not a perfect smile but close. I wear the clothes I stopped wearing and I wear them comfortably and proudly. I’m finally loving myself again after you left. I’m picking up the shattered pieces and creating something new, a new me.