Trying not to cry

I am 6 weeks and just had my first doctor appointment, and it was terrible. My doctor was a jerk. There were no congratulations or no kind of pleasantness. I am 303lbs. I have high blood pressure which I do manage very well. I was ok with my sugars, but I recently stopped smoking. She sat there and judged me. Now I am very well informed that I have health issues, and understand they have to reiterate them over and over and over. I am sorry all it does is piss me off. I know I'm fat, I cried for 3 hours yesterday. Cause she said she couldn't be my doctor anymore due to my risks and just scooted me along. I feel like I want to do something about it which I can, but all i get is these negative asshole doctors. How do anyone find a less judgy doctor that I can feel like I'm getting the best care and not just manhandled cause they want the money.