Too in love with my husband.

Hes at a concert with his friends right now literally having the time of his life. He says hes never been happier and has felt his depression wash away. While I'm so happy he feels so great, I just really wish I could feel that way. We have 2 girls and a baby boy on the way. He works so much and usually only has one day off and I work part time. The only thing i ever ask of him is to spend time with me but it never happens. Even when he is home he doesnt pay much attention to me. Just feeling really alone right now. I hate that the only thing i want to do is be with him because I'll never get it. So instead I'll just lay here and cuddle my almost 2 year old until she drifts off to sleep. She always makes me feel better 🥰 I really wish things could be different. Or atleast i could love him less because i hate this feeling.