Hey Everyone 👋🏾

Its kind of a long story ahead, hopefully you all make it to the end and can help me out a bit.

I haven’t posted on here in a while because I’ve really given up.

Hubby and I have been trying for quite some time but he suffers from sexual anxiety so every time we need to make it count, he hasn’t been able to perform so I decided I would stop trying all together. Now, some of you may tell me to make it fun and spontaneous and not about making a baby and to just enjoy it, but I’ve tried. For 2 months in a row now to be exact. I wouldn’t talk to him about baby making or even when my period was due. I tried to let it happen naturally but every time, he couldn’t. I haven’t made him feel bad about it, I let him know its okay even when its not. We haven’t been able to successfully have sex for over a month and when we do, we’ll have one good day then a break for the rest of the month.

Here’s where my question come into play.

The last time we had sex was on April 30th, and I was set to Ovulate on May 5th. I don’t know if I actually ovulated on that date because I ran out of OPK’s and since I didn’t want to actively try, I decided not to buy any more. However Glow as been spot on every month that I have taken OPK’s which has been since December. So I don’t think it was wrong this time.... Fast forward to now. My period is 2 days late with no sign of Aunt Flo other than mild cramps in my right side and my pelvic bone hurts a lot as well. I checked my cervix and its low, EXTRA SUPER soft and open reallyyyy wide and its really wet around it as well. When I finish checking my cervix I wipe my fingers on tissue to check for any traces of blood and there is none. I’m confused. I don’t know what going on. And I believe my period was actually supposed to be here on the 17th so I may be 4 days late. I had also had a dream that I found out I was pregnant, it seemed so real. Like it all made since the dream was current with things that’s happening in my life and everything. Just as I was going to tell hubby we were expecting I woke up and broke into tears. I took a test right then and there, it was negative. I don’t want to get my hopes up, actually I refuse to. I don’t think I’m pregnant but its got me wondering where the heck is AF, she hasn’t been late in months. And when it is late, its only by a day. But this has been either 2 days or 4.

What do you all think? I’m sorry it was so much lol