Hoe Mentality

Recently I got a boyfriend. I respect him and once I’m in a relationship I’m yours. We met in college and we live in very different parts of our state.

Recently I went home and a guy I used to talk to became very insistent on wanting me. I’be always told him no.

So he tells me this “I don’t know why you won’t let me fuck you. You’ve fucked so many other dudes and you talk to them for an hour then spread your legs for them. Just let me fuck you. I’ll pay you.”

I’ve never felt so disgusted in my life. Of course I hit the block button but I feel icky. I did have sex with people. But to use the fact that I enjoy sex and that I didn’t mind who I would get it from made me feel like a whore. I just feel gross.

And it made the voice in my head start thinking things like “you’re disgusting”, “whore”, “you’re not good anymore” and it just sucks.