I’m hurting so bad I can’t stand it. I’ve posted about this but I just need some mega help. I’m 22 weeks pregnant, and I’m now single. I’m terrified. I’m hurt.

My boyfriend and I used to drink quite a bit and did cocaine often recreationally. I became pregnant and immediately quit everything cold turkey, including cigarettes. My boyfriend has been promising me he’d quit coke ever since I found out. It went from he’s completely done to once every two weeks should be fine, then it was every weekend again. He manipulated me by saying I needed to be okay with it and be chill cause it’s selfish of me to want him to not do “just cause I can’t”. I wanted him to stop for our future. I don’t want that kind of life anymore. Well I talked to him about it when he was on it about 3-4 weeks ago, and I told him I can’t do it anymore. It started to become every weekend again. I came to a compromise and I said please just go a whole month without it or mentioning it or I’m done. (he hasn’t gone longer than 2 weeks without it) And he PROMISED me that me and the baby are more important and he would show me that.

Well this past week he had been taking the car we shared everyday to go hangout with his buddies, fishing, playing basketball, smoking, getting a beer. I had expressed that it’s unfair that I sit here alone because you’re more worried about your friends. He said I need to hangout with my friends more, and it’s not his fault they won’t come pick me up (just wow) and he put his friends over me one night to go fishing and I had to take the bus to return stuff at my old job (I could have waited til he was done but I was tired of waiting around)... well two nights ago he said he was going bowling. I was upset. I went to my cousins house while he was gone but I was still nice to him and still let him go. He went with our friend that does coke all the time so I said I’m fine with you going, just please don’t do coke. And he said “of course not babe, I made a promise”......... well he texted me and told me hesdoing it. And I told him if he did it he could count on losing me. Well he came home high. And I had no other choice but to kick him out. He has done things that aren’t okay to do in a relationship before. He has lied to me, he has gone behind my back... I have forgiven and I thought he had changed in more ways but I guess not. I stuck by his side through everything and sold all my belongings to move with him and now he’s taking our furniture including our bed from me so I’ll have to sleep on a couch at 22 weeks pregnant...

In a relationship it’s okay to have freedom but it’s another thing to take advantage of your so’s kindness and compromise. I feel completely disrespected and I can’t let it go on any longer. I hope he can change for good and we can be a family but for right now he doesn’t seem to care one single bit. He’s just out with his family, partying, doing coke I’m sure. He truly has broken my heart, but somehow I’m sitting here doubting my choice. I could really use some words of advice.... please ladies.