this sucks... 😔

My best friend had a baby today and instead of being at the hospital with her I'm on my bedroom floor sobbing. I feel like the worst friend ever but I just can't bring myself to go see them. I lost my pregnancy in March and I thought I was doing ok but apparently not... this is the first time I've broken down like this since the week it happened and of course it's right when my friend needs me. I know I need to get it together but I can't stop crying... we were supposed to have our babies together...