I’m in love with my Ex and I don’t know what to do.

What do you do when you are in love with your ex? To make it worse, the reason you broke up is something that could be worked on. To make it even worse, we’ve seen each other since the break up and everything falls perfectly back to normal when we are with each other. I am a heavy ruminator. So I can’t stop thinking about “what if” no matter how hard I try. I don’t want to talk to my friends about this because I feel ashamed for seeing him at all. I don’t want to talk to him about it because I don’t want to be too much.

Do I ask him to start over? Do I confide in my friends because I know they will still love me no matter what?

I am torn between love and reason.