Baby wish

I know this might sound like a rant but I just want to have a baby why cant I get pregnant I want a child so bad I have dreamed about being a mom since I was young and I know my husband wants a child but at times i feel like he would rather have his toys and hobbies than a baby. I see all these girls and woman getting pregnant and posting how they didn't really want a baby or it just happened or how they regret getting pregnant and I am just over here dying little by little inside because no matter how much I want a baby I just cant get pregnant. Why, why does God hate me. Am I that bad of a person that I just dont deserve to be a mom. Oh and then I keep thinking maybe it is my punishment to see everyone around me have babies and I am never going to have one. Maybe I will be a horrible mother that God is preventing me from being that bad parent. I just had to put this out there because I want to cry everyday with the knowledge that I am one day closer to never having a child. I just feel lost and hopeless and I feel like giving up on this dream and it breaks my heart.