Sigh just venting and talking

I made the decision this morning to return to an emotionally abusive relationship. I feel like I can’t live without him and was devastated to hear that he has a new female friend. All my family tells me I need to stay away. He tries to isolate me from them and when I called him out on it he said it wasn’t his intentions to do that and he will stop. I am sad and don’t want to be back but feel like this is my only choice. I know I am only punishing myself.

I wish I was stronger. I wish I could be stronger for my daughter who will be here in 4 months. My heart is winning against my head and I feel terrible.

Update: I made the decision to leave. Thank you everyone for your confidence in me and support for my daughter.