Af has arrived now on cycle 8 ttc and ready to give up. Trigger warning.

Honestly don't think my body will allow me to get pregnant again. Its punishment because my abusive ex husband forced me to have an abortion.

I've told my current partner how I feel. Told him more than once he should leave me and find someone who can actually get pregnant who isn't a failure of a woman that can't get pregnant.

I don't know how many more times I can be heartbroken that af has arrived. I do know it's my fault for not standing up to my ex.