Anxiety

I had a mmc found out at 11weeks in late march, got pregnant again after one cycle. I have another u/s on monday, I will be 7 weeks but will probably measure two days behind like my previous at 5weeks 4days. I know this is just cause I ovulated late. I feel like I can't breath. This wait is torture. I want to just get past 12 weeks then maybe I can breath again. I have been so sick today, my bf texted me and says I hate seeing you be tortured like this, the only way I could think to answer was it is only torture if it ends like last time. He has no words. I will take the nausea, vomiting, exhaustion, new stretch marks, peeing every five minutes all of it. Just please let me keep my baby this time.