What do I do ):

I struggle severely with depression. My boyfriend knows, he’s the only one who knows, I haven’t told my family (partially cause they’re some of the problem). He’s helped me through so much, and it’s been nonexistent for like two months now. But it’s getting really bad again, and I want to tell him, but I also don’t. I don’t want to be this problem for him or always be whining about things like “oh poor me help me”. He’s really the only thing that makes me happy and feel better, but that’s a lot to put on someone, and I understand that. I really don’t feel good right now and I’m scared, and I don’t know what to do.