Bringing you into the world is the hardest thing I’ve ever done

I can honestly say that I hated every single day of being pregnant, between having morning sickness throughout almost my entire pregnancy, getting kidney stones and the extreme anxiety and depression. I couldn’t sleep, I didn’t want to eat and I could hardly even look at myself in the mirror. I never wanted to be a mom and I spent every day of my pregnancy questioning if I was good enough to be a mom. Honestly the only thing that I felt while pregnant was terrified. I spent days and days crying because I didn’t know if I could be a mom. But now that you’re here the last two weeks have shown me that I need you just as much as you need me. I still don’t know what I’m doing but what I do know now is that everything will be okay and we will figure it all out. I love you more than you will ever know and I’m so thankful that God has given you to me because he knew what I needed before I did.

Annabelle Mae, 2 weeks old today