BDSM alone

I still live with my parents and I have no partner so HOW am I supposed to get my fill alone? I fucking neeeeed to be choked and to be manhandled and to be degraded but I dont have anyone to do it for me and I am WAY too scared to meet up with any guys I'm not familiar with. Its causing me so much frustration because I cant have a good orgasm without it and I need one so bad atm 😭

(Mostly venting but if anyone has any actual advice PLEASE lend a girl a hand!)