terrible anxiety about ttc

hey everyone! we won’t be ttc for a few months but anytime i read about pregnancy problems or situations i have a panic attack and get very queasy. i have very bad anxiety towards doctors, blood, needles and pain in general. for instance, just reading a post about a women’s birthing experience had me almost passed out. i’ve been off my medicine (lorazepam, fluoxetine/sertraline, and another i don’t remember the name) for a year and a half and i don’t know if i should get back on them. any tips or suggestions would be very appreciated!!