Ladies...I had my fertility doctor today with my husband...and he was getting testosterone SHOTS and they basically work like Male birth control!!! If your man uses testosterone ANYTHING tell him to stop asap! It takes 90days approximately to have the testosterone out of his system and him back to making sperm ... this was heartbreaking news to hear today considering that I'm going to have to get all these tests and screenings even though it was probably my husbands issue and not mine. Since I've had a daughter before with a normal pregnancy, equal and predicted cycles, no abnormal bleeding or abnormal bloodwork. I'm so frustrated and angry that I have to wait probably even LONGER to TTC over this. I cried like 50 times in the office today.

I've got this guilty feeling of not wanting to wait, I've got such a hole in the pit of my stomach. I was so angry that we went ahead and even got these shots for erectile dysfunction. Am I a bad person because I feel like this is my husbands issue and not mine? Does it make me a bad person to not want to wait and just get a sperm donor so I don't have to ride this out with him? I have to have my uterus poked and prodded for no reason and I'm so angry! What if these tests end up making ME the infertile one?! What if I end up damaging myself past repair?!

I'm just having so many overwhelming feelings now.