Am I selfish

I don't want to be with my boyfriend anymore,

I'm young been with him for five years we recently had a beautiful baby boy who I love so much my heart explodes just thinking about him ,

Anyways we both made the decision to have this baby after four years of him begging me for one , he spent the first two weeks at home and I was truly thankful I was sore all over and exhausted I had to stay up and pump milk because our muffin hadn't latched as yet so in the morning he had to take over for a few hours but then 76yI had to wake up to pump again ,

Around the third week the baby started getting extremely fussy and cluster feeding but he had to go back to work so being already tired I had to wake up more frequent and pumping a lot more I started lagging on chores all I could manage to do was clean and take care of the baby he started getting angry at me saying people might come visit and it gonna look bad on him if the room is untidy.. fast forward to six weeks baby is stil really fussy and demand a lot of attention and now he barely pays the baby any mind I have him all night and all day and BF comes from work hold him for a minute and then hands him back and goes to eat and sleep and I'm stuck rocking and shushing all night then wake up again in the morning and reapeat it while in zombie mode , the shitty part it I never wanted children but now that he's here I dunno what I'd do without him in my life but here is daddy choosing when he wants to play the father role like it's funny , I just don't wanna start over and focus on my baby and me because all he's doing is forcing SEX and I'm really really really not in the mood for SEX rn he doesn't turn me on anymore I keep begging for romance and getting disappointed the Other night I'm tired just finished eating and all he kept doing was begging for head i eventually got frustrated and gave him what he wanted but I couldn't help but cry our baby's was on the bed right next to us I felt like shit , another thing his family keeps on telling him you're tired 😴 so whenever he comes from work all he does is complain that he has to cook and make excuses to sleep