2nd round Clomid

Ok! I had really high hopes during my tww after my second round clomid 100mg cd 5-9. It didnt work this time i started af today. Right on time which usually never happens. But I learned that symptom spotting is the devil and I knew deep down even after 2dpo that I was all periody and feeling all shitty from that. Sooo im gonna stay positive though I have an appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist on July 5th. Im ready to start that journey. I knew in my heart that is what was going to happen. Im scared bc i cant envison myself with kids in the future.I cant visualize them in the future. Its hard to explain.Even though I want them so bad.

Thanks for listening. Wont be back for a while.