No closure

How do you move on without having any closure over the end of your relationship?

Like logically I know it is over, but then I catch myself sitting here thinking about how it could just be a misunderstanding and hoping it is because it hurts so much to think about my life without him in it. I thought this was the man I was going to spend my life with.

We were together two years and have a child together but one day he decided he was going to walk away and not give any reason why.

He blocked me on every form of communication except for snapchat. I never deleted him because I wanted to be able to talk to him. He would send me a message saying we needed to talk only to fall through with it basically just getting my hopes up. And I would catch myself being super anxious and excited to hear from him and checking his snap score(I know crazy) to see if he was ignoring me or just not using it.

Well today we talked a little bit and I asked him if we could have a face to face talk (so I could get closure). I was being obsessive checking snap chat to see if he had opened the message or not and making myself so anxious. And then was like you know what, if he wanted to talk and be with me, he would show me. So I deleted him.

But I’m just looking for advice to get over him without having any kind of closure.

Thanks.