Dreaming of holding my rainbow baby

After suffering 2 MC last yr and this yr, i cant help but dream of holding my baby in my arms, it seems as if all my friends r having babies and meeting their rainbow babies. Dear God i want this more than ever, i want my heart to be complete. I wanna kno what its like raising a boy i have 2 girls. O how i wish i could of knew the ways to prevent the MC from happening. I cant look at my ultrasounds without wanting to break down n cry. Until the day i meet my RAINBOW BABY i will forever hold on to the dream.