Unreal Mum guilt 😬

Being induced tomorrow at 38+2 for a number of reduced movements and a small drop in growth. I have a 9 year old son already who will be going to stay with my Auntie, He’s not keen on sleepovers and he struggles with mild autism and anxiety. I know he’ll be absolutely fine but the mum guilt has kicked in majorly today!! I hate that I can’t tell him how long he has to stay away for or how long the baby will take to arrive 🙈 He’s been the baby for 9 years and hasn’t had to share us and im not ready for him to be my big boy!! Haven’t even had time to feel nervous about being induced yet because I feel like bursting into tears every time I think of my son 😩😩