I feel like giving up.

I got pregnant about a year or so ago and I miscarried two days after I found out. I haven’t been able to conceive since. I’ve had sex multiple times during my peak and ovulation & I had sex a total of 5 days of my fertile window.. so I’m hoping this month is different but I doubt it... I’m just starting to feel like god doesn’t want me to be a mom & it breaks me in two. I’m tired of seeing negative tests every month. I’m tired of wanting to be the best mom I can be but never getting the opportunity... please just give me some encouraging words. I’m feeling pretty low.