need support please reaching out

Basically the title feeling like i cant reach out to anyone because i feel selfish and dumb, i feel like my body and face is ugly, ino im not ugly and not fat i should be grateful im alive and i am, such self possesive thoughts circling around my head its impossible not to compare, i cant handle seeing pictures of naked girls on my boyfriends instagram and hes reassured me so many times and unfollowed all the pages that post them but they still manage to pop up on his page. It doesnt make me worried hes finding them attractive because i know he only loves me. It just distresses me so much and i dont know why. I always get in deep thoughts like this, everyone just seems to tell me im beautiful and to get over it but that isnt helping. Looking for people to relate i guess i have no clue just reaching out as eve is a great patform. I care so much but at the same time i know its stupid and know it doesnt matter.