Postpartum depression

Sorry for this post, I just need to get this off my chest.

I feel so worthless. I can't do this anymore. I'm sobbing all day and it hurts to look at my baby (three weeks old). My partner works 60 hours a week and I know he does that for our family, but I can't help but be a little resentful that he gets long breaks from the baby. I feel like a terrible mother. I know that PPD can be treated and I'm going to 6he doctor today for meds. I have a history of severe depression and anxiety due to multiple chronic illnesses that I've had since 3 years old. I feel like my disabilities are part of what makes me a bed mom. If I could just do what normal moms can, I think I'd be happy. Sorry for this rambling shit show of a post, just had to tell someone, and I guess this app is the place to do it.