Feeling down

idk if this counts as a rant but I can’t get this off my mind

Ok so I dated this guy for about a year .. we broke up and haven’t seen each other in three years however we still have been keeping in Touch here and there .. he says he still loves me and wants me back and I feel the same.. so after three years we finally saw each other but after leaving him he hasn’t texted me back or even tried to contact me .. I feel really down about it

Here the issue ( I gained about 25-35 pounds since then... I’m not “skinny” anymore but I’m not considered fat either) I was to scared to meet him because of my weight gain .. and I feel like that’s why he hasn’t talk to me since .. idk I’m just feeling really down .