Are we meant to last?

ok so here's the 🍵. we've known each other since we were 7ish. his dad was my gymnastics coach and was basically my father figure growing up bc my dad was always at work. i always saw him with his uniform shirt untucked and his shoes untied, his brown hair messy and a smile never leaving his face. i remember having a thing for him but never taking it seriously due to the fact i thought he was gross (i was a child and i had higher standards than i do now lmao) because he always looked like he rolled out of bed when he came to school (which he did because we were literally like 7). i focused on this other guy because i thought i was too good for him and his untied shoe laces for years. until i moved schools after the sixth grade and came back for a fall festival (READ ON 'CAUSE HERE'S WHEN THE TEA GETS HOT).

i met up with my then best friend and started to look around. i noticed the plastics were even more plastic, the fuck boys were now even more fuck than boys and that some people had come out of the closet. i looked around with my then best friend of almost ten years and realized she had become the shadow of her new school best friend. i realized that we had all changed, we had all grown up. the goody two shoes who never got a bad grade or a parent phone call had become gay. the girl i had hated for nearly all my lifetime had gotten pregnant at 13 and had a tattoo done. so yeah, i was a bit shook to say the least when i found out my crush (the guy i focused on instead of the guy i actually liked, the guy who had to say half a sentence to make me laugh, the dude who literally had to smile at me for me to smile back) hadn't changed at fucking all. He was just two inches taller, with a little bit of acne, and had ditched the glasses. THAT'S IT. i'm seeing everyone change and the only one excluded is you? SO ANYWAYS.

i'm walking with her and there's these two guys walking towards us but at an angle so they're going to the side of us. I SWEAR TIME SLOWED DOWN I'M NOT KIDDING. i looked into his eyes, he looked into mine, and I LITERALLY COULD NOT BREATHE. OXYGEN WHO? I DON'T KNOW HER. I'm pretty sure he smiled? And I honestly don't know if I smiled back or kept staring like a fucking idiot. Afterwards, I swerved to my friend and told her this "WHY THE HELL DIDN'T YOU TELL ME (HIS ENTIRE NAME) HAD GLOWED UP?" maybe I was the only one that saw how much he had matured since we had not seen each other for over a year because she immediately said "what? no he didn't ."

let's call him "moonlight" ok?

so fast forward to ninth grade. haven't stopped thinking about him like at all, everyday it just grows in intensity, so in april I decide to do something about it. the day after April fools I talk to a friend so I can get his number (I KNOW PETTY AND DESPERATE AF SORRY IWAS GETTING IMPATIENT). so after waiting an eternity for him to say yes and tell her his number (this was through snap), I send him the first text two minutes after recieving his number because I was doing the thumb dance and looking up at his contact name and thinking "what the literal fuck am I doing right now if my parents find out I'm talking with a guy I'm screwed. screwed shut in my coffin after THEY MURDER ME SCREWED." nonetheless, I send him a "hi." he responds with a "hey." I respond back with a "hi" and we go on like this for a solid five minutes before he asks "what are you doing". LADIES PLEASE DON'T SETTLE FOR A GUY THAT TEXTS YOU IN SLANG OK "WYD" IS NOT ACCEPTABLE OK. so we've been talking for almost three months and he's asked me out three times. we have a kid (his name is Oliver and he's a robot that he made for me) and I've already chosen my maid honor and we currently have a joint wedding board on pinterest.

also: I've tried telling my mom and she told me his grandpa is in jail because his grandpa awas caught child molesting aand that's the reason why his dad (my father figure) got fired from being a gymnastics teacher at my old school.

any advice would be helpful, he's really funny and sar astic and we bond over memes and personal issues we each have. he said he liked me by asking me if I wanted him to be my forever boy because he has feelings for me too. I love ariana btw.