Anyone losing the will?

I was supposed to go to the doctors to recieve my depo 3rd of July last year, it'll have been a year next week, had my first show of AF the week before Christmas and then again in January, periods came back properly in february.. yet nothing has happened 😞

I'm just sick of seeing tests after tests each month, all showing negative even when I feel that could be my time.

I'm sick of getting myself depressed with it all. I've even stopped monitoring my cycle now😞