Assistances

I have been fighting an eating disorder for years now and I have slowly been gaining more confidence and security in how my body looks..... however I still fall back into my disorder. Today has been one of those days. I have been on vacation for a couple of days now and I haven’t been able to keep my normal routine. I am a big advocator for body positivity and loving the skin you are in but there are times I just can’t see what others see. My boyfriend and friends have told me I look fine but I still feel soo huge. I feel like my thighs are huge and my stomach sticks out waaaaayyyy to much and my arms are too big.

So what do you all think? Am I too big?