Tired of this crap

I was watching anime ,Ouran Host Club, with my sibling and my mother was off to the side. When one of the characters gives a little ‘all that matters is on the inside’ and ‘I could care less about what people think my gender is’ speech, my mom got mad. She is a homophobic person, and kept remarking about how that isn’t true. This is why I am unable to come out of the closet as pan. My dad isn’t much better, but he isn’t as bad though. When my parents bring LGBTQ+ up, I feel tense, like I’m hiding a huge secret. I know that we are Christian has a little bit to do with it, but I know that God pays for my sins. To add to the mix, both sides of my family are homophobic except for cousins. I am afraid to even come out to my bisexual friends. Heck even the girl I kinda like is heck-a-straight!!! I will be fifteen in about a month or two, and as I get older it gets harder. Please give me advice or at least a little comfort right at this moment.

Btw, June was difficult, since every time some one brought up the topic, there was always rude remarks. 😔