Gay but I don't like vaginas

I'm at a loss. I am a pansexual woman married to a woman. We have been working on our sex life a lot lately and it's been the best it has been in over a year. We have come a really long way and finally our sex life makes sense.

My wife was working really hard to meet my needs. Now that we are actively having ssx again, I should probably do the same. The problem is, the idea of being up close and personal with vaginas makes me so uncomfortable. I cant stand fingering. The way a vagina feels around my fingers honestly grosses me out. I dont even do it to myself. I don't like eating girls out. It feels like a lot of pressure. I have no idea what I'm doing.

This has never been much of an issue in our relationship, she's expressed thatany times in the past. I always ask if she cums and she says she gets a lot of pleasure out of pleasuring me and the way the strap on rubs against her clit.

But I feel like I owe it to her to meet her half way with how hard she has been trying. I dont know what to do. I want to please her physically, but it is completely out of my comfort zone. Please dont be rude. I've tries talking to friends about this and they make me feel ridiculous about it. I know this is a little unusual for a gay marriage but it's just how I feel. Can anyone offer any insight? Advice? Personal experience?