Abortion

So I had a miscarriage/ abortion last year because I got pregnant unexpectedly. My period cycle was. So bad I never knew when I was ovulating. Now after 1 year I still feel depressed and just want to be left alone. Cannot even talk to my husband because I’m scared he will say I am still grieving it. I had to go through a D&C as the bleeding wouldn’t stop from my miscarriage. But to me I feel I got an abortion. Need suggestions from you ladies as to what I can do to help recover from post depression. All I do is cry when I’m alone.