I just wanted to know if you guys think “once a cheater is always a cheater”.. since my bfs past infidelities I’ve just been a little paranoid/scared to get hurt again.. I don’t really believe a lot of things he tells me anymore.. down to the simplest things. He tries to assure me that he’s not the same person and has changed but idk how to believe it. I get really anxious around him as if I always have to watch my back 😔 you’ll ask “why are you with him if you don’t trust him” I don’t know how to answer that question. Part of me just wants to hope that he was just immature and that was an old part of him so we can move past it... but it’s honestly taken a toll on my self esteem too. Now he calls me beautiful and sexy 50 million times a day but I’m nothing like the women I’ve found him lusting over and it’s like idk why he’s really with me anymore. Outside of my paranoia he treats me well... idk how I feel just a little confused on how to go about this or talk about it to him. We’ve had the same convo almost 30 times and when I bring it up his expressions seem as though I’m annoying or like I shouldn’t still be thinking about the past but it’s not a choice. I really do wish I could move on from those memories